Okay. Will someone tell little white children that there are real people who are brown skin? In the grocery line and at the pharmacy, they stare at you. I want to say something to their parents who really should teach them manners. It is rude to stare. And, they should know that Obama and we share a skin color. They should know that there are millions of people with the same skin color. I guess it must be their first time seeing a real African-American. I am still old school. Don't stare at me. It's a reminder of the old days of discrimination.

I woke up Tuesday morning with the worst chills. I could not get warm. I cut on my little heater and got under my snuggie. I had prepared to go to Church where I volunteer on Tuesdays, but I couldn't really sit up. So, I called and told them that I could not come. I lay back and went to sleep. When Iwoke up at about 11:00 am, I wasn't shivering anymore, but My fever had spiked to 101. So, I took aspirin and drank juices and water all day. I ate some Italian soup with corn and potatoes. Well, that kept me up all of Tuesday night. I just can't eat corn. so, here I am, wobbly but I will get there. When I think of others who are really sick, I rejoice that I have a bathroom and a bed with a roof over my head. I thank God for blessing me

Hello, the weather is, as usual, messing up my health. My lack of insurance is messing up my finances. You see, after telling me that they would pay for everything up to June 1, 2009, the SHBP sent my a bill for appontments done this month. Am I going to pay to them? No, I can't. My budget can barely pay what it is meant to pay. I have got to move from here. But where? And, who is there to help me? That's enough of feeling sorry for myself.
The News. Yes, the CIA has been lying about a lot of things.They lie or don't tell the whole truth when it suits them. It's called " for National Security." and, when the FBI, CIA, IRS, and the Social Security speak, they can't be contradicted. And, when the truth comes out, they won't apologize. So , I prefer to believe the Speaker of the House .
Teenagers have been getting pregnant before we even knew that there was a Palin in Alaska. She cannot tell my young people what to do or what not to do. She had sex in her own home. WHERE WERE THE PARENTS? Governor Palin needs to study her geography, her US and World History, the meaning of knowing when to open her mouth about certain things, and what real family values are. In other words, make sure that your own house is in order first.

The old saying is "you can't fight City Hall." Well, you can't fight the IRS nor Social Security either. Because of a rule of which I wasn't made aware until it was too late, I won't have any health insurance until July, 2010. And, appealing to the IRS is like appealing to my aunt when she was ready to whip me as a child. I am resigned to perhaps dying before I get any more insurance. I am just feeling sorry for myself. I went back to the Social Security office but it was the same answer. Iam just plain tired. Frustration doesn't help.Nothing does.

This insurance thing is grating on my health. I have to have a test that deals with my aortic valve. It seem that it is narrow and they want to find out how narrow it is. I have a heart murmur. Hasn't bothered me all of my life, but it seems, now that I may not have any insurance to cover all of this mess, now it is bothering me.

Soggy, but "in my right mind. About to lose my SHBP on June 1,2009. Now I know how it feels not to have insurance and to need it. If I get sick, I'll just have to go to the emergency room. However, I really am not worried. I have written everyone I know.I now know why the elderly have to choose between adequate food and housing and insurance. One is"damned if she does and damned if she doesn't."
May 6, 2009-Happy Anniversary Class of 1971.